25 weeks & 2 days
[103 days to go]
And I feel like a bloated pregnant cow everytime i wake up. Sleeping has gotten difficult for me. i used to somewhat have a sleep schedule but baby's kicks wake me up, and baby likes to kick my bladder at night. so all in all i don't get to sleep til around 4 or 5 in the morning, which isnt bad when i have the days off, and i can sleep til 1 or 2 in the afternoon, but i have work tomorrow and im dreading it. cause i know i won't sleep. and i'll be tired. I already know my boss doesn't like the fact that im pregnant and on my feet so much, i think he's looking for a reason to fire me because of it too. but i keep my nose clean and there is no reason, so i continue on with my job. my boss also likes dragging his feet when it comes to getting my paperwork for maternity leave. i'm taking the entire month of november off, and just in case, i've already cleared it with my district manager i can take more time if i need. i've found a few daycares i like. i've been searching around cause i'm pretty much on my own for raising this child. outside of manny. =] who actually went to the extent of telling me he would gladly help me raise my kid, it would even make him happy that the kid called him daddy, and he loved me. i love him too, ive known him for years and i know i can trust him =]. but anyways. daycares right, i have to look at them. since i work 7-2 sat sun mon and tues i have no one to watch my baby, so i realy have no choice, but ive called a few places and some sound really nice, not to expensive, its something i can manage. so i want to go actually look at them. i sorted through all my stuff, [mom! i actually cleaned my room!!!] now that everything is picked up and out of the way, im going to go through my closet, all my clothes are pretty much just taking up space. so i'm going to put clothes i used to wear regularly in some milk crates and stack them up, so i have room for maternity clothes, which i dont have. but its ok, ive been doing great with sweats and scrubs. elastics and drawstrings. woot! but anyways, once i get that all done im going to move into the dressing room and clean up in there its a god awful mess, and i want to get the white closet organizer out and cleaned up so i can put all my baby stuff in there for now. ive been having urges to clean, cant you tell? everything i just a mess around here. dad took the vacuum to work so im stuck with out that, but atleast i can pick up everything and get it all in order. oh and i went ahead and did all my budgetting last night while i couldnt sleep. =] figure might aswell get something done instead of just laying there wasting time. and i have all my goals listed out where i can see them every day to remind me what im working on. so far ill have to work my ass off to acheive my goals, hell i have to make atleast 190 a week just to make sure of it, but i was looking at my past spreadsheets and i make about 200 a week total, mainly in tips. so i think i can do it. =] i just got to keep focused but they way i have it worked up i'll have 500 in savings and all my bills paid, which means that 500 is there just in case i have to take an extra month off, i have money for decembers bill. or if i need anything for the baby. =] but ive pretty much got everything covered. and im really proud of it. as far as classes go, i missed my first class this week. wednesday and friday, both because angel didnt want to go and i wasnt going to continue driving on a suspended liscense. i know she didnt go because it would screw me over. and she knew it. but whatever. shes the one that will be dropped from the course. i keep my work done and i continuely talk to my prof. like friday, were in the same class, i called my prof and told him i wasnt going to be there and explained why and got the assignment and all that fun, but angel doesnt know this. she's only hurting her self. but i still get all my work done and turned in. ill still make presidents list, or atleast deans list. oh and when i finish my diploma, dad told me he'll take me to red lobster to celebrate =] so im slowly getting that done. its not hard, im almost done. =] but anyways. life goes on. and im trying to make the best of it, wish me luck! =]
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